Tuesday, November 07, 2006
Guilt, Guilt, and More Guilt...
This next blog was inspired by a friend of the family who seems to struggle with these issues. It wasn't just her, though. It is a common issue that I see at work on a weekly basis with clients and even with myself. Now, however, I've come to a conclusion that seems to work and make sense regarding guilt. Guilt is something that we all seem to feel when we do something we wish we hadn't; when we don't live up to a perceived, subjective, or actual expectation (see how complicated it can be?). A perceived and/or subjective expectation is one that we have judged to be of value or importance. We place a value on it. If we do not achieve that expectation then we "guilt" ourselves by saying to ourselves that we are "terrible, awful, bad." A real or actual expectation has more to do with a decreed law that is irrevocable. We do the same thing when breaking that law. Now, to continue on to the nature of guilt
First off, there actually seems to be two types of guilt. The first one is actually not even guilt, but is remorse. I will give my definition and purpose of remorse and then the dictionary's definition. I see remorse as motivating sorrow for an act that we committed against the expectations we have (see above for expectations). Remorse is a positive motivator to change our behaviors that do not work or promote positive growth. Remorse is highly value laden as the individual can only feel remorse if they have broken a perceived value. Remorse does not involve shaming or demeaning oneself in any manner. Webster's online dictionary states remorse as: a gnawing distress arising from a sense of guilt for past wrongs. It's possible now as I read it that a definition of sorrow would be more appropriate for my interpretation of sorrow. However, for the time being I'll continue to use remorse.
The second type of guilt is--well, it's just plain old guilt. Guilt, in this case is a self-demeaning action that is done to shame oneself for having broken an expectation (my interpretation). Now for Webster's: 1 : the fact of having committed a breach of conduct especially violating law and involving a penalty; broadly : guilty conduct
2 a : the state of one who has committed an offense especially consciously b : feelings of culpability especially for imagined offenses or from a sense of inadequacy : SELF-REPROACH
3 : a feeling of culpability for offenses
I find it interesting that the first definition involves the placing of a "penalty." Guilt, as I see it, is placing a negative and overly harsh consequence on oneself. Being that it is demeaning and results in a greater "sense of inadequacy" it doesn not seem to foster self-actualization (Maslow's Heirarchy: see http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Maslow's_hierarchy_of_needs), self-worth building, or healing. In fact, it does the exact opposite. What I see in my job and personal life (friends and family) is a lot more of the second guilt than the first. It is hard to say why we all seem to fall into guilting ourselves, but my perception is that a majority of us do it. The second guilt is almost in competition with the first and mocks growth and development. They are opposites and compete for dominance. I'd say that the second is doing quite well, especially in the mental health industry.
Why do we do the second more often? Each therapist, depending on their preferred model might have differing opinions. I will not attempt all of the models of thinking. I will just say this. We always do something for a reason. If we guilt ourselves for a reason and it is not working, replace the behavior with one that will. If you want to "peal the layers" to find out "why" you do what you do, go for it. The increased self-awareness will be helpful in figuring out what isn't working. Much of the reason, I believe, has to do with an individual's self-worth. If one does not feel much self-worth, then it is easier to be negative as it feels more real. Then, as this is the case, one must begin the process of change by just "doing" what will work. Not thinking about it. Just DO IT! If you normally put yourself down, do the opposite. Build yourself up! It really doesn't take much. All you have to do is start with simple silly things such as saying in the morning, "I like myself." If it is difficult to do it, then just do it anyway. Your mind will follow suit. Guilting oneself can become a habit. We do it for a payoff and a reason (negative). So, just change it. Change must be hard in order for it to stick and be worth it.
Well, that's all for today. Catch ya on a re-run...